~betrayed~

though this thing happened almost a month ago...but the cut still bleed till today. i don't know, i tried to forgive her..which i tried i already did. but to present i can't even look at her...or think of the circumstances that we will meet. but this week lately, i saw her everyday and most of the time i'm out of my office area....definitely i can't run, so i just pretend i don't see her. i don't know she saw me or not.....if she saw, let her...let her know that i'm so affected by her selfish action.

she email me every now and then, telling me that she missed the timewe spent together like before...she wants that back..DUHH like i don't. but it's her fault....she is the one who spoilt it. eventhough she had admit it, but things happened and it did changed things....she cannot expected it to be like before. and if i say i can make things be like before..but with condition he left the guy for me... as if she will do it....

so, i try my very best to avoid her..to avoid being irritating to her...staying away from her is the best thing now....i don't know until when...maybe until the cut heals....